Jakeus' Journal

11:07pm: ...
What are odds that a package, with insurance and tracking number, is lost?
Apparently pretty high.

Date Time Activity Location Details
Aug 1, 2005 7:01 PM Picked up HOLBROOK, NY


So, Fedex apparently picked up the package.
And thats it.
I called them and raised hell, waiting for the "trace" to be completed.
Mother fuckers.
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DAMMIT ILL NEVER GET MR DRILLER 2 :(
oh but on the plus side, i did get that trackball for $65 plus 11 shipping. So IRRITATING MAZE MADNESS>
pics.SOON!

oh and:
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If you're reading this and in the Orlando area
I expect you to be at fashion sq. mall for my birthday
on August 20th. Because I'm working..
Friday, Saturday and Sunday :(
If not,
you're...a poop head :(

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10:35pm: how the fuck do i make this friends only?

3:56am: let the waters rise and submerge this whole rat infested place.
I should start taking pep pills or something.
I feel sleeping is becoming a waste.
I don't want to waste half my life sleeping.
I have to study.
I want to learn much more.
I want to make something with what time I have.
I want to go somewhere else.
I dont want to become a waste.

theres just so many things i want to do, I wish I had more time and never got tired. i just dont want to fall asleep at the comp again, i hate waking up with a horrible neck ache. plus im sure its just not healthy.

things are insane.
moving, bills, work, school, studying, projects, presentations, research.
i have absolutely no time for just...sitting. if i make time, i definately screw myself over for something else i should be doing.
notice the lack of social-life? anything social i manage to do at work or while studying or something.

im becoming really good at multi-tasking. i started learning while i sleep now. not like with tapes or something, like dead in the middle of class. I fell asleep for lecture, and without studying at all, I got a quiz and did fairly well on it.

man i need a club soda.

OH and before I goto bed, let me vent my disgust.
this idiot that works at one of the food places, who I talk to frequently, starts talking to me about computers. Now, I think I know quite a bit about computers, hardware and software. This mother fucker starts telling me shit "blahblah my comp aint workin blahblah". I've found instead of trying to tell people that they're mistaken or stupid, that if you just agree, the problem goes away. "Uh huh, yeah, oh that sucks, damn dude, shiit, are you serious?" It's really easy if you try it.
But sometimes I can't just let it go.
I'd say something, but that person might read it.
I hate people.
Oh, but I love irony.
I read the absolute most ironic thing ever today.
Heh, I love fate.
I can at least find it funny :)

2:50am: i broke megaman power battles.
took it apart, managed to fix it.
how did it break?
i had let it run the music on test mode, then after a little bit it went to a black screen and started going crazy.
after making sure everything was seated, (it was), i just turned it off. it came back on fine, but i knew something was wrong.
i took out the eeproms, made sure they were all clean, also seeing what each did. two for sound, three others for different parts of graphics, and this last one, i think it has some kind of boot procedure or something. no idea.
anyways, so i get to the last eeprom, pull it out, and out comes 2 wires. 2 wires? wtf.
so i had to spend hours of debugging trying to figure out the mystery of these wires.
i managed to figure it all out. the person i bought this from had rigged this up in such a way that different sockets would drive other sockets chip select and address line.
long story short, megaman is almost running again.
i just need to some insanely thin and durable wire to connect the two solder points.
i did boot it up to make sure it works, it does.
there went my opportunity for doing hw :/

oh and i ordered svc chaos, and mr driller 2 is getting shipped out monday (finally).

OH!
at work today i installed ninja gaiden. for an old ass game, its still pretty fun.

but yeah, electronic filled day.
but it does make we want to build some kind of..arcade game or something. im going to ask my professors about eeprom burners and rippers. im curious if theres some way to rip the eeproms, decrypt and edit them, re-encrypt and reprogram them. ie: Snk vs Jakeus, or Guilty Gear: Jakeus, or something like that. (just a picture of my head where every button produces a 1 hit kill, even the start button).
but also for the fact i want to create

3:22am: megaman'd.
so i messed around with the audio amp today, got it semi-working. i think it hums due to some common ground feedback bullshit within the television. i'm going to use one of the external speakers at work and see what happens.

so I figured "hey since i got this sound amp, i can have sound on megaman power battles now!". but when i hooked up the amp to megaman, still NOTHING! i was so pissed and confused. so i went into test mode. it describes some dip switch settings, one of them happens to be "sound: on/off". apparently my sound was in the OFF position -_-; so i turned it ON and plugged it into my speakers, great sound.

school went pretty well. understood this sampling/filters bullshit in my dsp class. english was a breeze. tired now though, working 2-whatever tomorrow. I'll probably come in early so i can install that double dragon and see if that audio amp will actually function properly.

so, it was an electronics filled day, and i didnt blow anything up!

11:06am: thanks for the wake-up call, WALGREENS.

but to everyone else, ASSHOLES.

6-8 hours of school here i come.
oh.
boy.

1:58am: Today I can't study.
I tried. I failed. I'm fucking myself for digital signal processing, but I just can't do it. It's so boring to me. I'd rather build hardware, which..I did instead. I built a functional audio amplifier today. It was pretty cool actually. I have to analyze it completely tomorrow.

Today I rocked a physics test.
It was a cakewalk. Hyped up bullshit, the teacher shouldn't of given us a formula sheet.

Today I had a conversation.
I watched a college student say she needs her pills, because they make her taller. of course, she ordered them offline and they take a few months to work. I could not believe what I was hearing. I then asked her "and what are you trying to become in life?". I got the response, "A doctor". I replied with "how ironic."

Today I was at work.
In the office at work and some random slut asks me for money. LUCKILY, im not really "working" so I point to Jon. This trashbag whore is like "i'll take 50s plz" and jon says back "just for that, all 1's." So she goes "thats no fun unless I dance for it. Want me to dance for you guys?" I was REPULSED by this girls complete lack of dignity. She comes up to two RANDOM people and is like "i dance 4 muney ^_^". I continued working on my cab, however jon did let her grind up on him.

Today I thought about how...strange love is.
I watched two people, boyfriend and girlfriend, argue with each other. They mentioned how miserable they are sometimes. If someone is so miserable with someone else, wouldn't it seem obvious to break up? I dont understand human nature anymore.

Today I looked out the window.
I looked at the city. I thought about the people in it. I thought about why I resent everyone so fucking much. I cannot even look around me while I'm driving, because I get so irritated.

Today I won't be able to get up.
Someone wake me up before 10 please.
..please.
248-224-4464.

2:26am: physics test tomorrow.

the professor said i could make-up my lab during the next lab session (score!). Meant more time I could bs before I studied. I crammed a few chapters of material in, I should be ok.

i had something meaningful to say about a certain someone, but i forgot what it was.

well, fell asleep at the comp for a good 5 mins.

time for bed.

11:04am: oh im sorry, its the moops.
what happened, happened. it could not of happened any other way.
at least i hope.

anyways, i passed out on the couch last night. woke up with a huge knot in my neck. sucks.

but i got this done:


i have a test tomorrow that i have to study for. (i understand half the material)
i have a lab due tomorrow. (not even started)
i have a lab due friday. (almost done with)

i found a ton of eccentric opera songs, which im excited about cause they'have such nice voices.

1:27am: for(int i=0; i < 5; i++) { std::cout << "Q('-'Q)\n"; }
MVSMVSMVSMVS

Oh god does it rule.
Pre-amplified sound.
Works great.
Came with two games.
By the way, NAM 1975 and Samurai Showdown 2 are apparently the HARDEST TWO GAMES EVER MADE, EVER
It took me 6 continues to get to level 3 on Samurai Showdown, and like 30 to get to level 4 on the nam 1975 game. I plan on getting some metal slugs, and maybe this puzzled! (tetris clone).
But for now, just need to finish up my cabinet.
Which unfortunately won't get the base done for like..2 weeks min.
Got mad bills to pay.

But I did all of my homework, although physics must be studied like crazy.
But I'm starting to understand most of the other stuff.

But yeah, gotta be up in 4 hours or so, bed.
I couldn't of had a more perfect conclusion to tonight.
:)

5:47am: I don't know where to begin.
I wish I had someone else's life sometimes.
I'm so fucking stressed all the time.
It's my 3rd week of school.

I have a test.
ANOTHER presentation is looming.
Starting a research paper.
Tons of homework due.
Researching a final project, already.
Having to pay bills.
Work.
Building my cabinet.
Researching random electronics.
Sucking at Matlab.
Not sleeping.
Labs to make up.
Befriending people I love.
Not doing anything social.

I have so much shit to do tomorrow, besides working.
Oh, at least Monday I don't have class.

Oh, and I bought the sides for the control panel to stand on.
I think I'm going to buy the back tomorrow. Once I get the back+2 sides, next week I'll get the front started.

9:08am: after it's all said and done,
i went berserk.

i bought something for $110.
so awesome.

i want it nowwwwww.

oh, and I have to build an audio amplifier for my cab, which sucks. ill have to do it sometime this weekend after i get my 387 and physics shit outta the way.

so today sucks.
we'll see how the weekend plays out.

4:08am: spent the past few hours (4 or so), when i hadn't paused to own jen in a battle of wits (its like trying to beat a rock in a spelling-bee), I've been studying the LCD on my insanely expensive circuit board:

Whatever fucking cheap skate who designed this board and started selling it for $250 is a moron. Seriously, instead of making things easy using the built in LCD busy flag, we had save ONE pin which creates a SHIT load of hard coded delays. Talk about fucking stupid. ONE single pin is not worth hard coding delays. Now they did remove four other pins, which makes writing to the LCD a complete bitch, takes two steps instead of one, but I can see why they did that one, but seriously, ONE pin is not worth all the extra code that had to be implemented. Using dumb delays and shit, how retarded. I created an actual technical document on how to implement the LCD, and I'm going to give it to the professor, because for one, he doesn't know how it works exactly, so..I'm sure he can find use for it *cough*



Yep.
So I got my kick harness in today, was playing street fighter earlier, and I think over the weekend I might go get some more wood to continue on my cabinet. Rulessssss.

Night :D

1:18am: You humans are all the same.
Retarded.

You know, if someone dies, they die.
It's a tragic event, in some cases, but in others, it happens.
If I have resentment towards the deceased, it's understandable that I don't care that they've died. It sucks, yes, however, life for ME goes on. If my immediate family, or REALLY close friend were to die, yes, i'd be sad, however, it HAPPENS. MANY PEOPLE DIE EVERY DAY.
Yeah so Kim's friend "Greg" died. I personally didn't like him. How is it mean if I don't care? I doubt he'd of cared if I died. Plus, he disrespected me in the first place. It all goes back to that thing of holding grudges. Some people can just "let it go". I'm not one of those people.
But since he's dead, I guess I can look the other way.
I don't mean any disrespect towards him PERSONALLY, I'd feel the same about 99% of people.

Oh, and in other news:

4:55am: fuck.
megaman came today.
no one was here so fedex dropped it off at the office.
im hoping if i get done at work early tomorrow i can speed back home and pick that shit up, then goto school. unfortunately for me, i wont be home till like 6ish. :/

oh but this is cool:



time to work on something for it to stand on.

i woke up around 4, so I have to stay up, otherwise theres no way ill be getting up at 5:30. i know this means ill fall asleep during class, oh and also during class I have to give a presentation. yeah i know, second fucking week and im giving a presentation. FUCKING ENGLISH CLASS. -_-;

5:35am: why cant i ever sleep
bought mr. driller 2 pcb.
i emailed the guy about megaman, it should be here tomorrow.
the kick harness later this week.
next few paychecks (after bills), are gonna goto the bank.
i was gonna buy a neo geo motherboard, but decided i should give the buying a rest. i was almost addicted :)

tomorrow i can finally work on the cab a little bit after school.
havent had a chance to even mess with it since like thursday.
3 hours of class tomorrow (sweet!) and I gotta run to the bank, to DEPOSIT money! :O

oh and i seem to be going to bed like around 5am every night.
this makes me wake up late for whatever.
im starting to get irritated with myself for doing that.
but i cant help it.
oh well.
better than taking sleeping pills like some fuckin wierdo.

1:01am: as tears go by


I wish I was on a potato chip.

5:01am: one more time.
okay so I have the absolute last game..i think.

mothafuckin SMASH TV, with one flaw, no sound?
it has the sound board, but I either blew that or I'm just connecting it wrong.
Yeah, it started smoking.
I was given two diagrams on how to connect the board<->cpu, and i picked the wrong one.
however, smash tv is a DAMN fun game.
i might consider installing this at tilt if I can get the sound workin.

but yeah, so today was funny.
heres how I ended my night:
*turns games off*
*hears roar of crowd*
*laughs*
Nigger: "Hey man I want my money back!"
Bitch: "Yeah, me too, this is crap."
Cracker: "..Yeah."
Jake: "Uh, well its policy not to give money back, I can offer you a toy or candy or a free game the next time you come in."
Nigger: "MAN THATS BULLSHIT"
Bitch: "...WTF NO I WANT $"
Cracker: "...Yeah."
Nigger: "YOU BEST CALL SOMEBODAY WHO CAN FIX THIS SHIT"
Jake: "Ok, I'll call somebody"
*calls security*
Bitch: "Ok I'll take a stuffed animal pls"
Security Bitch: "Ok whats the problem?"
*explains story*
Security Bitch: "Well if it's policy, theres nothing you can do but file a complaint. But for now, you have to leave or Orlando Police will be notified to arrest you."
Nigger: "Man thats BULLSHIT."
Cracker: "And whats your name, because I'll be talking to your supervisor"
Jake: "Oh well my name is Jacob, and my supervisor, who is my very good friend, is Jimmy."
Cracker: "Ok THX."
Jake: "Whats your name?"
Cracker: "You dont need to know."
Jake: "Good luck getting your money back, CAUSE YOU WONT :D"
*waves*


that is seriously how it went down.
leave it to people to try and ruin the night.
and on a day I get to sleep in, I stay up late as fuck.
I wish I wish I hadn't killed that fish.

2:05am: you know, i was gonna post something relevant to my day, but i changed my mind.

scored tekken 3 free.
three games ive gotten, all free.

oh and i got a side job as a male dancer.
naked jake + money.

blingbling.

4:09am: im finally tired while not in school.
i've fallen asleep everyday during every class since school started.
and its not one of those dead asleep things either, its a short black out, but my mind creates this dream-like thing where i think im actually awake and the teacher is talking, BUT OH SUDDENLY, i JOLT awake, for no apparent reason. Sudden movements during near silence, i get alot of strange looks. But strangely enough, RANDOM people are like "hey jake, whats goin on?" I think my reputation is getting a little...big? I dunno, I'm just not used to walking down the hall and every time having someone "yo jake! whats goin on? hows blahblah *insert bs conversation*" i dunno, its strange, but for some reason, i like it? i guess it's because i help SO many people with labs, projects, etcetc, that they just like me.

so, project update:

see that?
look hard.
at the base, see that clear thing?
yeah.
a MASSIVE piece of acrylic windowing, about 44"x20" that I just happen to find.
it has been sitting around so I put it to use.
but how do you cut acrylic windowing?

..power tools.
i went to sears and BOUGHT a pimp dremmel. works DAMN good.
although cutting that much took me..2-3 hours..-_-;
oh and i also did this, just to test:

connected everything, played some marvel super heroes vs street fighter.
ruled.

tomorrow?
gotta work on 387 final project? I'm going to be the first person to utilize the infrared system on the dragon12 board to communicate to several devices.
i cant believe i have to start my final project this early in the damn semester. dammit :/
i wanna build my cabinet!!!! :O

4:24am: this is what i smoke
so heres what happened. I got another game from work since I installed the "un-installable" game. Everyone said it was impossible to install it in our arcade, but it took me not 15 minutes to rip out one game and swap in another. Its street fighter vs marvel super heroes, not a horrid fighting game, especially since it was free.

this is a picture of it connected to the cps2 motherboard. black part is the motherboard, blue part is the game, yes they are separate objects. oh and I have to change the suicide battery before it dies, which sucks serious ass. for those who don't know, in capcom's cps2 arcade games (which is quite a few) and a couple others, they incorporated a suicide battery, which dies after 5 years or so. the battery powers an encryption table, and once lost, CANNOT be revived, easily. this encryption table controls graphics and many other things, so you're FUCKED if it dies. you have to send it to capcom, so they make MORE money. assholes. anyways.

theres is displayed on the tv, CRYSTAL CLEAR, at least in person.


so someone might ask, "yeah thats all well in good jake, but no controls, no cabinet, IE: GAY".
id respond with this picture:

AND THIS ONE:


"wow jake, thats quite unimpressive."
simple minded fuck.
its a control panel (which i built from a piece of wood). yeah thats right, I BUILT THAT. I'm quite impressed with myself on that one, it turned out real well.
"Yeah jake, no buttons or joystick, GAY"

last one.
ready?


I'll make all the connections tomorrow, as for now..
night ;p

2:52am: :)
there are those days when life is just awful.
one bad thing after another.


..this was not one of those days.

i'll talk about it later :)
..with pictures.

11:14pm: and like charles manson
i let the colors grow.



but the challenge, to build a cabinet.
ill draw a design tomorrow..IN CLASS -_-;
yeah, class tomorrow...back to the normal routine of "school, work, sleep" or "school, project, sleep"
argh.

5:26am: bloop
whats up with that shit?

so jen ims me out of nowhere about the ring i bought her awhile ago.
"is that the ring you bought me?"
"yeah."
"oh, ok, advice for your next relationship, dont rush into things."
"yeah i dont plan on it."

where the shit did that come from?
i cant be understanding you people

way to make me feel shitty. :/

3:31am: oh baby


One might say upon first glance, "wow, black and white tekken tag, pretty GAY"
Now even though tekken tag is GAY, upon zooming out:



You notice the PCB, Power Supply, and Converter.
Oh and considering I got ALL of this free, rules :D
Just got it setup, have to figure out color SOMETIME tomorrow.

So, saw fantastic four. It was better than I thought, not a bad movie. It certainly wasn't as bad as the hulk.

Well, gotta be up in like 6 hours for work, so I'd best get some rest.

Ah, night :)